成人头条

For the first time since March, there鈥檚 art hanging in ShiftSpace, 成人头条 State鈥檚 downtown gallery.

Amy Huser installed hundreds of feet of weavings for her Master of Fine Arts thesis show 鈥淐asually Not Okay.鈥� The brightly colored textiles are suspended from the ceiling with hooks and almost invisible line, almost like brushstrokes liberated from canvas.

The exhibition is the artist鈥檚 response to the amount of time she has wasted doubting herself, but it also reflects the triumph of a marathon finish line and an unexpected surgery in the final weeks of graduate school. Ultimately, it makes a statement about transformation.

Like all university entities, the gallery is closed to public gatherings until at least May 26. At some point this summer, ShiftSpace will hold a reception and gallery hours for 鈥淐asually Not Okay,鈥� though they may be by appointment only.

In the meantime, Huser spends a lot of time in the gallery by herself with the work it took her years to create.

鈥淚 continue to learn more about becoming something new from seeing it hanging here,鈥� she said. 鈥溾�楥asually Not Okay鈥� is a celebration of the process of becoming more confident and free from self-doubt. It has evolved past where the ideas originated and what the process was. Now the space encourages movement, play and reflection.鈥�

At the beginning of her graduate studies in fall 2017, Huser鈥檚 work explicitly addressed the pressure she felt to check the womanly boxes of marriage and family. For 鈥淪avasana,鈥� an earlier work, she created a weaving using bridal textiles.

As research for her thesis, Huser reread the journals she wrote in daily for more than ten years. This writing practice functioned as prayer, meditation and documentation, and she estimates each entry took about an hour to complete. Many focused almost entirely the artist鈥檚 feelings of unhappiness about 鈥渘ot measuring up.鈥� These totaled 730 entries, roughly equivalent to 730 hours of self-criticism.

鈥淚nstead of spending 730 hours in crippling self-doubt, I decided to spend it in thankfulness and joy over how life is working out,鈥� she said. 鈥淚鈥檓 reclaiming all those hours.鈥�

Huser marked each hour spent weaving with a red line, which signifies one journal entry. The only restraint she imposed on herself was the line for each hour, and the absence of solid red in the rest of the work.

The installation includes hand-dyed yarns woven into intricate patterns, which reflect the artist鈥檚 skill. Other parts are less refined, made from whatever she had at hand.

In some places, Huser refers to literal moments from her life, such as the plastic gear bag from her marathon, strips of which are woven into a section of one piece. In others, viewers may recognize visual references such as a 90s-era sweater or Chuck E. Cheese tchotchke.

Huser also repurposed the journals. She tore each page from the 14 Moleskine and spiral notebooks and fed them, one by one, through an electric shredder. The process took several days.

鈥淪hredding those words was cathartic, but it needed to be done in order to move on,鈥� Huser said. 鈥淚t was also hard, because I had held onto them so long.鈥�

She encased the shredded pages in packing tape and wove them into her work. One piece is almost entirely composed of her own destroyed words.

Plastic bags add texture to some pieces.

鈥淚t spoke about the idea of taking something seemingly throwaway and making it new,鈥� she said.

Huser first used a loom as an undergraduate at the University of Kansas, where she earned a degree in art history with a studio emphasis in textiles in 2014.

Contemporary textile artists share a connection to the resurgence of craft in the 1960s and 70s, when women embraced textiles while simultaneously critiquing the concept of traditional women鈥檚 work.

鈥淭he connection to what was considered women鈥檚 work is why I kept weaving,鈥� Huser said. 鈥淚t feels tied to the pressures I felt as a woman, which is what got me started me down this road toward this installation.鈥�

鈥淓ven before I discovered weaving, I鈥檝e been into repetitive, meditative mark marking,鈥� she said. 鈥淲eaving is a very intense repetition of putting down a line of thread and pulling all the different parts of the loom. It gets the whole body involved, and your mind can let loose a little bit and meditate as you weave, because it鈥檚 this simple, repetitive, bodily motion.鈥�

She identifies with the textile and installation artist Ann Hamilton, who talks about how her mind 鈥渇alls open鈥� when she works with her loom.

In graduate school, Huser found another way to let her mind go when she took up walking and running.

鈥淚 found my art process spilling over into my entire life,鈥� she said.

鈥淣o one in their right mind would run their first marathon their last semester in graduate school,鈥� Huser acknowledged. She finished Orlando鈥檚 Walt Disney Marathon in January.

The artist says running has changed her relationship to pain.

鈥淚n running, we can go through pain because we know something on the other side is better and if we can go through this thing, we鈥檒l get there,鈥� she said. 鈥淪ometimes it鈥檚 worth it.鈥�

That approach allowed her to go through the process of destroying her journals, and it helped her push through to the end of her thesis project when she was sidelined by foot surgery.

鈥淭he surgery wasn鈥檛 that big of a deal, it just meant I couldn鈥檛 use my loom in the last few weeks of grad school,鈥� Huser said.

To finish her thesis work, Huser cut long pieces of yarn and plastic fringe, which she knotted onto a length of string. The swags are a 鈥渓oose interpretation鈥� of weaving, which is literally the process of attaching fibers together. The pieces also give the installation more lightness and movement.

The end result wasn鈥檛 what Huser expected, but she doesn鈥檛 see it as entirely finished, either.

鈥淚t鈥檚 one thing just as it is, but it also has the potential for growth,鈥� she said.

鈥淎nd that鈥檚 life.鈥�